Saturday, September 26, 2009

overdue photos will be uploaded next time .
lets talk about this week .
this week is simply

school > home > slack > home .

kind of dead huh ? but im loving it yeahh . why ?
cos im just lovin it larhh , isnt it obvious ? ahahaha . okay im crazy .
todayy , woke up , bath and went out .
cab down to cresent as im too lazy to walk to cresent . slacked there , smth happen . ahahahahaha . perfectly fine ;D continue to slack until 5 plus .

walked to admiralty . okay , on my way to admiralty , i literally cry larhh . idiot ! fuck ! like an idiot walking while crying , like an ass . bodoh babi . train-ed to farrer park , while in the train .
same old thing happen again . pukimak . nbut this time round my tears din roll down my cheeks ;D *proud . im forcing myself to not cry in the public la . bodohs . yeahh , i wipe off my tears before it came down . guess how i wipe off ? i look down to my phone and wipe off . pretending im looking at msg . ahahaha but indeed theres msg larhh !

whatever ~~~
when i reach farrer park , mum was there . -.- sit-ed at the other side , emo-ing ! ahahaha. no larhh . just no mood to work larhh . ahahaha . sms-ing with friends . until 10 plus 11 , daddy came to fetch miie home .

recieved msg from kenn bearBEAR , telling miie that my blog was being spam ! ahahaha . so asked friend to help miie check on it . and indeed was being spam ! haha . whatever larhh . took panda's word to delete tagboard first . and well , i dunn care okayy .

依然微笑着! 不要再对我说爱,因为你已经把我对你的信任完全摧毁了。

currently talking to fengqing tutu !! ahahahaha ;D ilovetutu ! ;D pacifier

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

zen tay !
alright , since you post miie on your blog now my turn to post you on my blog .
thanks for being there when i need someone by my side .
i remembered i was only p6 when i know you yeahh . ahahha .
nice guy indeed . so fast know you for 4 years le sia . dumbo you !!
my super close close friend !!
anythiing can contact wo okay ? i will pei you de , since you used to peii miie ;D
4years friendship still counting on ...
iloveyou friend !


say something about today . sucklish .
dunn ask miie why, i slacked till halfway . my mood went down down down down . keep on thinking and thinking .
next sat will be the fourth month of waiting . people just make miie sleep can ? this few days cant really get into sleep , let miie sleep and never wake up can ?
i dunn wann think so much , i dunn wanna cry anymore .
i promised i wont slit until you break your promise . and i swear if you break that promise , the scar would be FOREVER ! you know becos of you , i can do anythiing . since my leg has already has a scar . i dunn mindd having scars on hand . becos of you , i lost a way to relieve pain .
and boy ,
i really dunn wish you to go back to those messy lifestyles with troubles everyday , you once told everyone you wanna a peaceful life , but no . you are not doing it , you are back to how you used to already ,
if for miie to choose , i would choose not to know you . even though , you let miie know how to love , but you are making miie worry more than being loved .
and since , you once let miie know how to love . and you din let miie know how to not love , and till now .
im still posting & loving you .
ily boy .

Sunday, September 20, 2009

20 plus minutes to 21st .
im still missing you . its has been 3months and 19 days , i've waited for 3 months and 19days , how long more i suppose to wait ? boy , day by day its getting more and more hurt.
its that what you want ?

Saturday, September 19, 2009



ahahaha . went to some squadmates's blog , most of them posted those photos uh ! ;D so lovin' it with NPCC yeahh . din regret to join uh . fun&joy , that was the only moment that can make miie stop thinking of stuff and concentrate on stuff . ;DD
many heart to ADSS NPCC yeahh .

promoted to SGT , HAPPY HAPPY ! must jiayou jiayou , strive to get staff next year . if i can uh ! ohh yarhh , almost the whole squad was promoted ! congrats yeahh ;D and now juniors named us as sirs and mdms ! ahahaha . okay , pardon miie for bring so crazy cos everytime i talk bout NPCC i will be like so excited and like sot liaoo! ahahaha .

last but not least ,
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY sweetheart ! ;D iloveyou !

Friday, September 18, 2009

im speechless ; im tired . i dunno what to do . for everythiing i've done , i still cant get you back . i really dunno what to do le .
for this 3months and 15days , being alone , feeling so lost . im already tired . i've been waiting waiting and waiting . boy , does this go to waste?
imissyou really lots ,
i miss our past .
i know i did smth wrong in the past , but what i want now is just another change .
can we?

people around miie knows that im still loving you , but do you ?
people around miie knows that im still waiting for you , but do you know ?

im still waiting , anyway .
21st is coming again ! LEAVE MIIE ALONE!
can things just get right on the track ? fuck all this things yo !

went to school with shane again , daddy din send us to school as he was tired ! LOL . so in the morning , morning assembly , prize presentation .
was chatting with friends & gans all the way , den get one teacher keep come and stop us from talking . guess what she do ?

she stand in the middle of miie & fengqing tutu in order to not let us talk . but still we still talk ! LOL . nothing can stop miie yo ! crazy ass. after that , DNT !

had class test , did some 2-3 question ! dunno how to do plus no textbook no reference -.- after doing , SLEEP ! till the two period ends , headed back to class . LIGHT , mr rudi dunn believe that my name is chan yu fen ?!?!?! tell him , im yufen and he replied with 'you sure not ?' so fucked up lorhh . whatever~

next , maths lesson . OMG ! TEst ! diedie . no confident sia ! skipskipskip ~ recess . skip ~ chemistry ! listen to lesson for half a period , after that cannot take it , fall asleep ! LOL !!! when i woke up , lesson end ! time to say BYEBYE ! ahahahaha .

went to 3n1 classroom , met up with lemin ! and then , went down to study corner put bags , sms-ed romzi ask where is he . and then , he reached and joined us . prepare ourselves for promotion test , sizing command till i near go crazy yeahh ! ahahha .

2.15 pm
gathered all sec3s squadmates and fall in , was being punished by romzi . the whole squad larhh , kena pump 25 times . after that , recovered . i took over sec 1s , attendance and everythiing and went to do CSSP .

group-ed with eddie , yijin and xiaoping didi ! draw draw and draw no art talent lehh . like shit liddat sia ! but we did our best ! ;DD after doing CSSP , fall in at the foyer tgt with the sec2s . preparing to get promoted ! WEE~~~

while waiting , louis sir took sec3s for some basic drill . ohh yarhh , super miss his training lots larhh , since he went into army . ahahahaha . after that , promotion ceremony .
wasnt nervous at first , kinda relax . after that when lesile called my name , im like stuck and forget what to do larhh . march out liaoo , end up OC ask miie go back -.- call i keep laughing , was the second last to get the rank , last will be lesile as he was the IC just now . ahahahaaha .

after promotion ceremony , besurai ,
debrief ; some photo taking. and went to change . bought lemon tea , and then meet up with fengqing tutu ! ;D he waited for miie outside at the main gate ! ;D he helped miie to take my bags and coat cover and i only take the bottle and lemon tea ! not i torture him hor , is he want take de kay , so not my fault ! wakakaka .

went to 756 met up with slackers . hmmmm , dunno what to say there . wasnt smiling at all , NO COMMENT .

pictures below is what we took after debrief!

looking at you is fine , but looking at you two ; im hurt .

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

i've not been posting for weeks uh . and now im back here posting ;D
okayy , last week was suppose to be a school holiday , and pupils are suppose to relax and all those shit , while miie , i mean miie went to aunty's shop and work . gosh , its freaking tired okayy .

and now , school days .
as per normal ,
met up with shane , daddy send us to school , after school , sst / remedial , homed bath , slacked and den home .

till now , im still struggling bout you . you would never know how much it hurts . and i wouldnt know how much longer i can hold on . im getting tired ~

Friday, September 4, 2009





pictures taken on teachers' day celebration ;D

day by day .
its getting harder and harder , but im going to hold on .
因为你 , 我又犯错了。
我还在等待, 还是爱着你。

Wednesday, September 2, 2009










Photos taken on 280809 , celebration for EDSEL'S baobeii the advance birthday PARTY ;D yeahh , HAPPY advance 15th bithday ! loveyou many many !give you many many hearts .
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takecare always

tml will be the 4th month that you left miie .
i missed you , everyday without fail . for this 3 months plus going 4 months , i took every chance of mine to look at you, steal a glance from you . its has been a long time , since i take a good look at you .
im glad that you're studying now , so like i've promised i would smile everytime we see each other . but boy , everytime you gave her a kiss-goodbye . did you realise that i din even look at you guys ? cos it really hurts .
worrying bout you was a non-stop thing . troubles from outside thats happening to you , makes miie fucking worry bout you . makes miie cant get to sleep , thinking that will you be okay or not ? paranoid whether anything will happen to you .
just becos of that mistake i've done on that day , everything changed . i've lost you . slitting was back to my mind . im sorry . even though , i told people i will give up on you . but theres no way im doing that , cos whenever i feel like giving up , something will stop miie from giving up . but when im holding on to it , everyone is asking miie to give up .
im so fucking lost . im dunno how to face tml , its never be okay for miie to face you , her & everyone . becos of you , i cried again . becos of you , my heart hurts once again .
becos of you , i slitted . becos of you , im lost .
if now im gonna be hurt like this , and got what i eventually wants in the end ; seriously i really dunn mindd get more hurt than this . telling you im not holding any much big hope on you , im lying to you . every thing is a hope to miie , im still holding on to a big hope . if this gonna kills my heart , i dunn mindd .
becos of you , i can do almost everything . just becos of one simple reason ,

just another chance ?


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